Update

So, I'm sure by now most of you know that I broke up with Chris last week. It was REALLY hard on me. I cried and cried and for that first day I couldn't even eat. But things just didn't feel right with Chris. There was so much confusion in my head and heart. And his non-commitment to the Church and its standards broke my heart every day. And one of the people that I was able to turn to through all of that was Bruce, my bestest guy friend ever. He is amazing and loving and spiritual as I said two posts ago. So since I have been thinking about my relationship with Chris for so long, really I have been mourning and mending my heart for like a month or two. So while the initial break-up was really hard, I was able to get right back up on that saddle rather quickly and move on. Like I said one of the people I was able to turn to and open up to was Bruce and we obviously care a lot about each other and talk a lot as well. So yesterday, it was time for my heart and my head to battle it out. My head said, Nicole don't date Bruce yet, its only been a week and you two are still thousands of miles apart. And my heart said, Nicole, what are you waiting for? He's your best friend and you care about him a lot. Just take the plunge and say yes. You two already act like a couple. Well, my heart finally won out and Bruce and I became official. That however, was the easy part. I now had to explain to my hurting ex of only one week that I was moving on and had a new boyfriend already. It obviously didn't go well but since Chris already knew we were really close, it wasn't too big of a shock.

However, I have to admit that I am super happy. I know that might sound bad but Karyn came up this last weekend to visit and she said she could tell that I was happier and that I was actually glowing. I thought she was crazy but as I think about it, she is totally right. I don't know if I glow but I'm really happy. Happier than I have been in a long time or maybe even ever. I'm finally, finally doing what the Lord wants me to. The only reason I was able to get through that break-up with Chris not only emotionally but also so quickly was that the night before I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I laid it all out there. And when I finished that prayer, not only did I know this was the right decision but I also felt peace. That feeling of peace is the only thing that got me through not taking him back no matter what he said or did.

I have also always wanted to help people and for this reason Business Management just wasn't cutting it for me anymore. I did a lot of pondering and finally decided to go into Social Work. I wasn't so sure about it but a couple weeks later I felt that same peace from the Lord that this was the right decision and that I was going to be good at it. And now that I'm back and school and taking Social Work classes and trying to get my prerequisites done, I am LOVING it. Today, I had Family Interactions and Human Biology and I left both of them just feeling this overwhelming joy. Social Work and these other related topics are really interesting and actually apply to life. I'm learning a lot and I'm already turning into a Social Worker mentally. We were watching a movie the other night and I started analyzing this family. I made me laugh but deep down it felt great. I really feel like I belong in this major and in this career. Yes it has added two and a half more years of schooling than I had planned but really being able to help people will be totally worth all the extra time studying.

I just really love my life right now and I love my friends and my family. It's just amazingly wonderful how well my life is turning out.